Monday, October 25
After 22yrs 21 days of my life...
I have come to understand certain parts of me better...
A long way I have taken... but i believe i still have a longer way ahead still..
There are more in me to explore...
As of 25Oct @ 0315..
I am not the person you see and think i am...
The way that i behave and speak is definitely not 100% the real me..
There is a unspeakable reason for my every action and sentence..
I may appear strong on the outside.. but i am soft inside (like wat farah has quoted me to be like Bueno Choc in her friendster's testimonial)
I used to find it hard to say No.. but i have learnt to say it somehow somewhere...
I used to think being nice is the best thing on earth.. but i was proven wrong many times..
I used to put others in front of me in all kinds of events... but again.. i was proven wrong...
I used to believe that time will heal all wounds.. but i realised that once wounds are there..even if it has recovered... scars stay forever...
I used to be easily softened by kindness, sweetness, niceness n all sorts of -ness people put into me..though i am still easily softened as of today.. but i have learnt to tell myself not to be sway off my path..
I used to brood over unhappiness.. but i have learnt to shift that time and energy to hockey which i could derive happiness, satisfaction, sucess and more...
Nevertheless, for you out there..
I know you care...
I know you queried..
I know you persisted..
I know you are tired..
I know you have given up..
I know you are disappointed..
I know you are extremely upset..
I know you ... I know... cos i know...
I asked.. I queried.. I tried.. I crumbled....
Posted by Cookie at 3:40:00 AM