Sunday, October 31
1st part of today's entry is specially to Uncle Leon!!Happy bdae to u!! Happy bdae to u!! Happy bdae to Uncle Leonie!! Happy Bdae to u!!!
*im so so sorry tt i missed ur bdae by 2.5 hours*
2nd part of today's entry is dedicated to myself!!
Cookie Tan!! Never believe u are tt brave... haha... As of today.. after 22 yrs plus... i actually recieved 3 jabs within a day (max in my life so far) at sports council.. 2 on my shoulders, 1 on my back... the spasms are too bad tt doc goh decided to go ahead with the jabs..worst part of the jabs are: after the needle is inserted, doc had to pull the needle within me in & out ard the area to jab & spread the liquid to the surounding areas... tt's the worst part... all these could be the after effects from my slipped disc.. sob... hais... will be reviewed in 2 weeks time... if it doesnt get better... more jabs comin...= ( *all these for a good cause*
feelin all the bruised & achy on the spots... drowsiness too from the pills tt i popped!
quick update over the last few days:
work sucks big time.. nv believe im so unlucky tt all my almost 400 invites cards for the state of uni address have to reprintd & reinserted after we found out that the rsvp number was wrongly printed!!
great metup on fri too... had dinner at Coach's place... mrs park cooked up a feast !! yum yum... met my ex-starbucks partners late... love them so much!! despite the fact they are always suan-in me .. they are still the nice bunch of ppl to hang out with.. *always feel like im a small kid who have ventured into the real working world in their eyes*
my tang lao pa left for aus on tues.. life is so boring w/o him.. haha... well..guess he is doin well... he called me twice!!! yeah!! he still rem this daughter of his... esp after i smsed complained to him bout work ytd!!! always there for me!!! miss ya lotsa!!! still a long way b4 u come back!!! 22 nov... the day b4 state of uni address!!! be backie soon!!!
meanwhile... i shall train hard like i will always do!! shit!! i have yet to finish up on the sheet for thoughs n feelings for the team!! will update bout the names too!! anyway..im Monster Cookie *borin...*
Posted by Cookie at 12:45:00 AM
Tuesday, October 26
my twin - Tan Koon Huay, Cream
Courtesy of Cookie n Crumbs
Posted by Cookie at 9:55:00 AM
Monday, October 25
After 22yrs 21 days of my life...I have come to understand certain parts of me better...
A long way I have taken... but i believe i still have a longer way ahead still..
There are more in me to explore...
As of 25Oct @ 0315..
I am not the person you see and think i am...
The way that i behave and speak is definitely not 100% the real me..
There is a unspeakable reason for my every action and sentence..
I may appear strong on the outside.. but i am soft inside (like wat farah has quoted me to be like Bueno Choc in her friendster's testimonial)
I used to find it hard to say No.. but i have learnt to say it somehow somewhere...
I used to think being nice is the best thing on earth.. but i was proven wrong many times..
I used to put others in front of me in all kinds of events... but again.. i was proven wrong...
I used to believe that time will heal all wounds.. but i realised that once wounds are there..even if it has recovered... scars stay forever...
I used to be easily softened by kindness, sweetness, niceness n all sorts of -ness people put into me..though i am still easily softened as of today.. but i have learnt to tell myself not to be sway off my path..
I used to brood over unhappiness.. but i have learnt to shift that time and energy to hockey which i could derive happiness, satisfaction, sucess and more...
Nevertheless, for you out there..
I know you care...
I know you queried..
I know you persisted..
I know you are tired..
I know you have given up..
I know you are disappointed..
I know you are extremely upset..
I know you ... I know... cos i know...
I asked.. I queried.. I tried.. I crumbled....
Posted by Cookie at 3:40:00 AM
Friday, October 22
*thunderin afternoon*braised ducky lunch i had... yum yum... stonin away durin lunch... workin my head off this mornin... cleared lotsa work... more to go ...
tired from trainin... felt like runnin lotsa ytd... so ran n ran n ran b4 trainin ytd.... well... i will gain from it... perhpas i shall go for a run when i get home this evenin... long weekend ahead!!! on leave on mon.. shall blog from home tommie or tonite... *back to work..drownin away with my fave song..*
Tears In Heaven
by Eric Clapton and Will Jennings
Would you know my name
If I saw you in heaven?
Would it be the same
If I saw you in heaven?
I must be strong
And carry on,
'Cause I know I don't belong
Here in heaven.
Would you hold my hand
If I saw you in heaven?
Would you help me stand
If I saw you in heaven?
I'll find my way
Through night and day,
'Cause I know I just can't stay
Here in heaven.
Time can bring you down,
Time can bend your knees.
Time can break your heart,
Have you begging please, begging please.
Beyond the door,
There's peace I'm sure,
And I know there'll be no more
Tears in heaven.
Would you know my name
If I saw you in heaven?
Would it be the same
If I saw you in heaven?
I must be strong
And carry on,
'Cause I know I don't belong
Here in heaven.
Posted by Cookie at 1:48:00 PM
Wednesday, October 20
I have got so much to share..so much..so much...tonnes n tonnes... but im not gonna blog bout it..cos... i dun wan to... for all that i've known... im behavin in this way tt i've never done so today..is cos i noe it's all for a good cause at the end of the day.... this is my plan... my plan.... my plan... so tt everythin wun hurt tt much shd tt day finally arrives....Posted by Cookie at 11:28:00 PM
eh?
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Posted by Cookie at 6:00:00 PM
Tuesday, October 19
twinie cookie
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Posted by Cookie at 5:10:00 PM
Saturday, October 16
You're a "Green Angel". You're one person
who is extremely protective of people around
you (especially your friends) and you'd end up
as a gaudian angel. You're stronger than most
and aren't ashamed to show it. People know how
tough you are and don't dare to mess with you
when you get mad. You're real close with your
friends and couldn't live wihout them so even
in heaven, you want to help them. You know
they'd want you as a gaudian angel and you'd
love to be able to ensure safety of your
friends for yourself because you're on of those
"If you want something done right, do it
yourself" kind of person. (If you can't see
tje pics, go to my homepage and look near the
bottom and find your result)
What Color Angel are You? (PICTURES)
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Posted by Cookie at 8:31:00 PM
Venezia Strawberry/Mango/Lemon ice cream cleared the air within me.. washed away all those unneccssary thoughts and feelings that have been in me for the last few daes..
Thx Janey(great dinner) and Yok Sing(the trip down to 6th avenue for ice cream & home too). You guys really made my dae..
My mind has made the decision. I shall not hold on tightly to certain thingys that wern't meant to be mine in the 1st place.. i have slowly learnt to let it go... eventually, there will be no grip of mine anymore.. that is the dae i will be happy... that will be the dae tt im looking forward to..
Posted by Cookie at 12:39:00 AM
Friday, October 15
i chose to be like this cos i dun wanna to be hurt further...i chose to be cold cos i dun wanna be sad...
i chose this cos i tink this is the only way out...
1 conclusion - anything once broken.. will nv be mend no matter how hard u try...
Posted by Cookie at 12:13:00 AM
Tuesday, October 12
Sickly Cooks is in again... bloggin from home..on mc... didnt go work... too much 'good' food ove rthe weekend again... haha... stomach upset... hais.... my sugardaddy aka Tang Lao Pa, Yok Sing is on sick too! haha... im broke..when are u transferring the money over?? haha... not too much...1k per day can liaos.. haha...day was not really went spent cos of the fact tt i hafta pay my family doc a visit... springcleaned my room... went ard the house with the world spinning once a while..
now i gotta pray tt everything be well for me tom when im back at work.. haha.. no stomach discomfort nor upset... pray for me too...
Minghuei, the photographer came to take our game against the JB team on sun morn.. thx lotsa!!
Game pix against Johor Team on Sun, 10 Oct 04 at 10am
Posted by Cookie at 8:59:00 PM
Monday, October 11
Dear all... Im damn tired... Bluey Cooks is working todae... = (Though i enjoyed my weekend greatly.. Burning my pockets... But the end result were great... *fun, great memories,experiences*
Spent my whole morning uploading the tonnes of pix tt were taken.. As follow:
The Sunday we played against JB and celebrated Coach's Bdae
CompMart and BreWorks Dinner on Sat
Brandon's Farewell on Fri
My Colleague, Hun Nee's Wedding
Final conclusion... Im gonna have nightmares of Yok Sing and Linda *my sugarparents for this weekend and my ever dearest greatest company* Nevertheless, im gonna cherish you two as u guys definitely holds a place in me now.. Haha... FSHhhhh.... 'Thkies for meeting me up for dinner after my game last nite!'
Game against JB team was great... Not for me.. I only managed to touched the ball once... When sheena missed a bouncy ball.. Haha!! Well.. I guess as a team... We performed better during our 2nd game in the evening.. Great work ladies!!! Keep it going and all will come!! The sun had baked me thoroughly... Need no blusher today for work... Cos of my natural blush!! Haha...
Wow.. Im taken back by the number of tags on my board!! Yeah yeah.. Luurrvvvee you guys lotsa... Keep it comin in k?? If not my blog seems so dead...
Val: yupz... Thkies for informin of ur new pix... Update mi here the next time too!! So i wun get dissapointed everytime i pop by ur blog!
Nenghui: yupz.. Yupz.. Thx for droppin by.. Drop by more often! Study hard too!
Leng: my ever dearest audience.. Haha... Take gd care of your back k? u will come back strong!
Ying: thkies... *huggies* love u for who u r.. Yeah.. Small sacrifices are essential to reach our final destination!
Fen: thkies too... Cos i know somehow somewhere u are here .. Juz tt u arent sayin anythin.. Thkies for everythin... Here for me too..
=p aka Xiu: thkies for always droppin by.. N leavin cheerful tags to warm my day up... Jia you!! All those open goals shot.. Hai yo... Next time put it all in k??yupz Val is that Val from STC.. Haha..
Long blog indeed?? Requests are done.. Haha... I wanna Zzzzz... I wanna go play chess in my dream with Uncle Zhou... But i cant..cos im working now.. Haha...
Posted by Cookie at 3:26:00 PM
Saturday, October 9
i got home at 130am!! wow.. a long day.. at work... had hungarian delegation... den met up with the gang from sports club... for a farewell dinner for Brandon.. he is goin back m'sia 4 good.. all de best Bran!! shall upload the pix soon!! i had a great time tonite.. meetin up with everyone.. enjoyed myself so much.. esp our stupid 'wat are ur future plans' session at coffeebean!!*was our our way home when we decided to detour after Yok Sing called after his D & D.. ended up at West Coast Macs with Yok sing, Alan n Brandon.. i love k700!! (brandon's fone) we had so much fun takin pictures with those frames tt come with the cam phone!! shall upload soon once i get hold of it!! great catch up!!
orite.. i cant take those ready with frame pix..im a loser... yes i am.. alan... u r still de best!! took so many nice ones of me and yok sing!! took lotsa pix tonite too!!! as usual..my fone n cam always die on me on such great occassions.. haha...
its finalli sat... i shd or i shd say NEED to go physio tom for tt the bruise on my elbow is gettin bad.. not goin down at all.. i must go ..i must go... haha... shall go..rest well tom.for sun's 2 games!!! jia you Cooks!!!
Posted by Cookie at 1:55:00 AM
Tuesday, October 5
618pm.. im still in office... orite.. killin time... attendin my colleague's weddin dinner soon... so tired.. had a visit tt didnt last the whole day.. im gonna be on course tom.. woohoo.. meanin i can wear casual... jeans n tee!! yeah yeah!!orite.. my msn nick for now is ' dun give up on me' ..
dun give up on me no matter how i much i give up... pls hold on to me... dun give up on me..
tts wat i hafta say... 'dun give up on me'
Posted by Cookie at 6:21:00 PM
*ButterCup*
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Posted by Cookie at 11:00:00 AM
Monday, October 4
im in the midst of typin the minutes for my last office meeting.. well.. i tout i shd blog .. so here i am... orite... a weekend fullof ups n downs went by with a twinkle* i cant imagine.. i actualli met the same 2 person for the whole weekend.. oh no..im gonna have nightmares of them - yok sing n linda.. (Ehemz... u guys noe wat i meant... i dun mean to be the lightbulb..im always bein asked by u guys unknownly ..hais if i noe.. i will say no... jane..help mi.. i dun wanna be a BULB* haha... mustafa is realli my new hangout place now.. since last fri.. i was there 3 times.. ying fen n me are the new powerpuff in SRC.. ying being blossom; fen being bubbles & me being buttercup.. they said always frown.. do i?? haha.. watever.. its all cos of tt bumble BEE pix!! haha... played against theresianz last evenin... lost 2-1 though we were leadin 1-0.. hais... well... i tink i played well... thought still a long way to go.. this small achievement is my little step to bigger ones ahead...hard luck Cooks!! take it easy... a sinful weekend... sinnin away with tt sushi lunch after trainin ytd... sinnful dinner at tiong bahru market ... haha... sinful tek ping at cwealth food centre.. haha... sinful pratas this mornin b4 work.. haha... stop sinnin away... stop stop stop...* back to minutes typin*"*Click here for my lightBULB pix over the weekend*
Posted by Cookie at 4:52:00 PM
Saturday, October 2
introvertee is typin... yes.. im shuttin everythin..everyone outta my life for the last 48 hours.. i dunno wat went wrong... i, tan koon kim, cookie, sincerely apologize to all tt i crossed paths for the last 48 hours.... im sorry if i was rude.. i was rather quiet... rather bo chup...wat went wrong?? i realli dunno.. insecurity again?? i tink so... i-n-s-e-c-u-r-i-t-y is the word i guess.... i dunno wat lies ahead of me... my life seems to be in another low phase once again...
someone out there?? no.. i cant do tt.. i got to do this shitty thingy all by myself... cos i know i can.. its juz how fast im gonna take...
days of cookie's sat - went immigration to have my ic changed... yes.. my name is officialli TAN KOON KIM, COOKIE... met linda for haircut and lunch.. came home..napped till 730..met linda yok sing n fabian at holland v for dinner n dessert at nydc.. sinful...s-i-n-f-u-l... now..im back... been so long since i blog from home... im tired... im tired from all these shit tt i have been receivin... yes.. im tired....
i have crumbled.......
Posted by Cookie at 11:56:00 PM
Friday, October 1
Geez... my colleagues n i had juz had a session inside our OCR Workroom... lookin at ppl's blog n laughin at ppls' entries... haha..realli no governess... spent almost an entireli 1 hour in there...my blog was officialli intro to them too... after our meetin... haha... oh my..im suppose to intro them here..mebbe over the weekend..when i haf the time.. haha... shall tink bout it!! haha...
okie dokie... gonna start packin now... 5 day week startin today!! woohoo~! meeting yok sing n guys later for dinner... *gtg rush home ot get my wallet n stuff... walletness the whole day*